Over it?

In a conversation with one of my best friends, she inquired about a guy that was seemingly trying to become a reoccurring Lead Actor in my rom com. I very flatly gave her an unenthusiastic response to which she asked, "are you over it?"

I paused for 2 brief seconds before I acknowledged that she was right. I was over it! Ya know, if you want the role as Lead Actor in this movie of my life, then accept the challenge and give a hearty audition! Give it your best shot, not a mediocre display of occasionally good performances. I mean, that is unless you'd prefer being in a supporting role... then that we can discuss later {Castings for the role of Supporting Actor will be at a later undisclosed (because it is unknown) date}.

In a similar conversation over "Pomertinis" and sushi with a guy friend of mine, he declared my reason for being stuck in Singleville being due to my lack of training. Not training of my own, but for not training men. Apparently, I need to tell a man what to do. "WHAAAT?!" I exclaimed in the restaurant. "You have GOT to be kidding me."Surely the verdict for breaking free from a life sentence of being single, cannot be the secret 11th commandment: "Thou shalt tell your man what to do at all times." I am over hand-holding and training adults. When does it become easier?

Occasionally, I go through old Facebook posts and read the comments people made on my wall. I don't think this is narcissistic, I just enjoy taking trips through my past like revisiting scrapbooks or reading old diaries. In a Facebook post two years ago, I played an awesome April Fool's joke by posting a picture of my left hand with a beautiful (& borrowed) engagement ring on the appropriate finger. I called my mother, gave her a head's up & asked her to comment, for fear that everyone will not believe the news otherwise. Once she did, an influx of comments from both men and women about my "news" came in and I began to laugh hysterically. What a good prank! But what then drew my attention were the comments from guys like "Who's the lucky guy?". Some guys were happy but a lot were in disbelief, as if they missed their chance! No honey, you didn't 'miss your chance', you just didn't step up to the plate when it came time for your audition. OR- you never even auditioned to begin with, so what difference does it make?! 

I don't think I'll ever understand the mind of a man. They claim to be simple creatures but truthfully, I find that they are complicated.
If you want it, get it.
If you get it, keep it.
If you don't want it, don't fish for it.
If you lost it & want it back, fight for it back.
If you want to audition for the role of Lead Actor, research the requirements & do it.
And please...If you can't commit, don't. And please don't act like you're offended when she commits to someone else.

I guess I am over it.

Cabin Fever

One would think that having a break from it all would welcome mental clarity and relaxation. Instead, I find myself battling with writer's block & cabin fever! I played with my shoes last night... Yup. My shoes. Here they are surfing the web, reading and even cooking.

I hope I can break through this writer's block soon.